well howdy folks!

well not too much is new since my last entry. let's see what i've been up to for the last week. last saturday, i went with katie and krystal and we chilled at the mall, and saw The New World. pretty cool movie, y'all should go see it. then on sunday, well i'm not sure what i did sunday. i think i hung out with fahad...... maybe. i'm not sure. well monday i remember i definitely did hang out with fahad, and i ended up like just leaving his house and all that cuz i got bothered with him. tuesday, i had school, then a alex and ryan came over and we worked on maff, then i went laser tagging with adi, rachel, adam, and alex. unfortunatley we got home a lil late, and i think adi got grounded..... poor adi. then i talked with fahad on the phone for a while and we talked about stuff and soforth. i ended up being on the phone for 2 1/2 hours. twas a good convo. wednesday was school, then me and fahad went and had some chinese buffet.... yumzorz, then we chilled. thursday i had my class, then i worked out a bit, then ryan and alex came over and we all played a buttload of halo and did a little bit of math. then i went to fahad's, he had some ppl come over and yeah that was cool. and then today, i went to school, then went to lunch at BK with alex, then went to jumaa, worked out some more, and now here i am. guess what else? tonite is the dinner theatre! break a leg ATC in ur new theatre! i am very excited to see the theatre. so yeah........ it'll prolly rock. anyway well that's all from me. i'll ttyal!

-Stev

-Current Music: Linkin Park/Forgotten

howdy everyone!!!

well it's been like 11 days since the last update. well what have i been up to since then? not a whole lot i think really. In the days for the rest of the week i updated during, i suppose i did some hanging out and going to school. overall the rest of that week was pretty good i guess. then saturday i had a birthday party at fahad's house.......so that was kind of interesting. me and b-rad slept over that night, and were being so weird i think we drove adina crazy. then sunday i chilled all day feeling tired-ish lol. monday was school, and then a bit of hw/ hanging with alex and ryan. tuesday, i was at the school and we did some hw also, then hung with alex a bit too. wednesday, i think i just had school, then did some hw with ryan and alex, then went home and chilled. thursday, went to school, came home, went to caribou coffee to do MORE hw with ryan and alex, then chilled with alex, then did some job hunting and saw Underworld Evolution. that is a sweet movie and everyone should see it. Friday was school then jumaa, and i put in an application at circuit city and picked one up from gamestop, then i went to brad's and chilled with him for a while. then today i woke up, and went with lisa to see the stable she works at and meet some of the horses. those are some really cool animals. i like horses a lot. so that's what i've been up to. man, i haven't hung out with anybody since like..... the party last saturday. and they all keep doing stuff....... so i'm like yeahhh. i think y'all know how it goes. wondering if you're not getting invited for a reason and soforth, or if ur just paranoid. anyway i think i'm done with my entry, so i believe i will ttyal!!!

-Steve

-Current Music: Theory of a Deadman/How Do I Live Without You(Walk Away From This)

hey y'all!

well, today is another day. it's about 1 week after a most good birthday. i have not been up to a whole lot, but enough to be feeling pretty good. so um wednesday i did nothing really that i can remember. then thursday, well that was a good day, because fahad and brad were able to come over and i got to hang with them for a little while. then i went to katie and krystal's house, and we hung around for a while and then they took me out to see the producers. it was okay, but it wasn't as good as i'd have liked. i'm not sure they enjoyed it very much either, but it was still pretty funny. anyway friday b-rad came over and we played halo for a good while. then i stayed up kind of late playing ninja gaiden and watching battlestar galactica..... SUCH a good show. then saturday i chilled for a while, and went to fahad's for his party. pretty darn good party. i've been playing with the idea of having one myself, but i'm not sure when i should exactly, whether it's friday or saturday. well anyway i was at fahad's till like four in the morning, playing Uno believe it or not. then sunday i went with Joe and we raked dirt at this soccer dome that was being constructed. we did this for 3 hours and got payed 30 bucks each. then i got ready for devin's bday party, and i gave joe a ride over there. devin's party was a bit slow at first, but i ended up having a lot of fun. after working i was kind of tired, but it was good all in all. then monday i slept till the crack of noon, and went bowling with sam, fahad, jason, devin, and joe. i really suck at bowling apparently.  then we all went to whitney's house. that was pretty fun, i prolly played about 6 games of pool. also there was a galaga/ms. pac-man machine, and an Addams Family pinball machine. so yeah some cool stuff there. then i went home, played ninja gaiden for a while, then went to bed. today, i didn't do too much. school, then some more ninja gaiden. i think after about 17 hours of play i'm finally getting close to the end. that is one long game. so anyway u are now up to date on my life. so yeah anyway y'all........ i'll ttyal!!

-Stev

-Current Music: Green Day/Extraordinary Girl

hello everyone

guess what? today is january 10. IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!! HELLLLLLLSSSS YEAH!!!!!!! 19 YEARS OLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOTTTTT!!

alright. yeah that was me spazzing out. as far as what i've been up to since the 4th(?), i went to fahad's birthday party, which was a killer good time. also, in other news, i have been fired. which kind of sucks. but it's also good because i get to take it easy for a while from work. and... well.... TODAY IS MY BIRTHDAY AND I'M SO HAPPY!! today i went up to AHS and hung out with my friends.... all of whom are some of the best in the world. i am one freakin lucky guy. so yes to all my friends i absolutely love you all, and thank you for making it a great day so far. right now, i'm at fahad's and we are watching jackie brown! woot! and later i think we are going to have people over to celebrate good times!!! so yeah i'm having a really freakin good day.

lastly, today is a holiday known as Eid, so i give a huge EID MUBARAK! (happy Eid!).

take care and later days,

-Stev

-Current music:Soul Meets Body (2nd best song EVER!

P.S. IT'S MY FREAKIN BIRTHDAY YEAHHHHHHH!!

Currently Reading Angels & Demons By Dan Brown see related

hey all!

well first and foremost, it is the birthday of a very good friend of mine today, mr. fahad shuttari. so everyone wish fahad happy birthday! and if u don't see this b/c i'm posting it at 11:40 pm on his birthday, then ummmm wait till the day after i suppose, and make it a belated happy birthday. yeah i hung with him for a while today, and it was all good.

so since dec. 30th, i've been up to quite a bit of fun. on the 31st, i worked, then went to merica's new year's party. well it should be known that it was really really fun. i played a good game of texas hold 'em, but unfortunately did not win, and it was a $93 pot. but oh well. then much hanging out and chatting, an attempt at watching 40 year old virgin till merica couldn't take it anymore (lol), then we watched something else...... tho i can't quite remember what it was. oh yeah, mr. and mrs. smith, but everyone was real tired. i ended up staying up all night just chatting with ppl about bs, then i called work at like 9 AM and left a message saying that i wasn't coming in, with a # to call back, but they didn't call, so i figure it's fine. then, i went home and slept, then fahad had a party, so i ended up staying at his place for the rest of the nite. that was lots of fun also.... b-rad is always hilarious. then i went home, and felt emo for the rest of the day, and i think i know why, but more on that later. then the 3rd i felt kind of bad, but later on alex came over and was able to hang for a while, so that was nice. then i took down the xmas tree, did some vacuuming, then watched the orange bowl. that was a pretty darn cool game. good times. the next day, i had my first day of winter semester with Composition II and Calc I. both classes look pretty good. then i went home and chilled for a while, then i went out to chinese buffet with fahad, ogi and joe. then i went home, and chilled some more (what do u know). then i had my World Politics class today, which looks to be really really interesting. i'm looking forward to it in the future. then i got some lunch with a couple of friends up at OU, then went and hung with fahad all day. so yeah that's what i've been up to.

okay.... and now the part of my entry where i talk about issues that are bothering me and i'm tired of not saying something about. u know, the interesting part. so there's this girl. i'm freakin crazy about her. like.... idk, she is the nicest gal in the whole world, and i'm completely head over heels for her. this has never happened to me before to this degree. i mean i've liked girls before, but i know i can't rest till i have closure. so what's the problem? well, i have like 3 different voices in my head. the first one says "hey just forget about it.... this isn't the right time, or person." which is of course totally unacceptable, because i can't get my mind off her. the second voice is saying "well why don't you ask her out? i mean you get a realllllly good feeling from this girl, and you get along well. so go for it!" well, i would.... except for voice number 3. this is the practical one that is usually right. "honestly steve, you should just forget it. every other time you have tried this, it has not... worked..... out. simple as that. every girl you have asked, since having a girlfriend, has said no, in some way or another. who says this time will be different?" so, yeah... i'm definitely between a rock and a hard place. what helps even less is the fact that half the time i swear on my life she sees something more in me, something that she really would like to commit to...... but then before i know it, i'm just another guy with a couple weird quirks, an interesting wit, and an upbeat disposition. so that is total BLAH! and it's pissing me off.

but...... that's not all. the other thing is i have a friend, a really really good friend. and i can't stop comparing myself to him. i find myself thinking (quite often) that they're simply better than me at being buddies with people, and i want to be just like them. and the thing is they've earned it, just by being them. however..... there is a big problem. some of the time, this person just seems like they don't care that much about other people, that at the end it's about them. and that's really not working well for me. it's just.... i don't want to be good buddies with people who can be a really good friend..... but only selectively. and they sometimes have a habit of talking about people behind their backs. and i want to tell this person that they do this... but i get the feeling that they are not going to care. and i'm not about to stop being friends with anyone. so i'm in a crappy place again.

so if you read the entry, which i hope u did, i was just wondering what advice people have on what they'd do, and what they feel i should do. i would appreciate it IMMENSELY. no lie.... i'll be so grateful to y'all. so yeah, maybe a bit of advice for stev, seeing as this time he needs to get some instead of giving some away.

well, that's all i have to say. i hope everyone takes care. oh and lastly, not that it's a few days late or anything........
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i hope you all have a very good one, and i hope you all are a part of a happy one for me.

alrite, later y'all!

-Stev

-Current Music: Eagles/ Hotel California